A week off and my failure at capitalism.

Japanese is over for the summer. I now have a week "off" until Fall semester starts next Tuesday.

The Japanese TA for my class recommended I look into working at the writing center at the U, and get paid for what I've been doing for friends and colleagues on many occasions, for free. 

So many little things I could be "not doing for free". Graphic design. Translation. Tutoring. Writing stories... music. Tooting my own horn. etc. but that wouldn't be me. It just leaves a bad taste in my mouth to think of asking for payment to do things I enjoy doing anyway. It would be like..  - "Can you please help me cross the street, young man?" - "Sure, but it'll cost ya!"

I guess I'm not a good capitalist.

Life after Death?... What?

  I often have extreme difficulty understanding how human beings process and prioritize the perceptions of their world. The concept of life after death, or rather, the yearning for such a thing, is puzzling to me.

  Our reality is made up of many dimensional facets, the perfunctory ones being length, width, height and time. We are a natural part of that construct, and we function perfectly well as such. As an individual; one of many, I occupy a finite portion of that construct. This is, of course, necessary to function properly. If any of my dimensional aspects were to be changed to a value of infinity, I would no longer function correctly in reality. Imagine a person infinitely tall or infinitely wide. That would entail immobility at the least. This is why a desire for infinite life, i.e. infinite time is not reasonable to me. It would be like wishing you were infinitely tall.

Given this information, my question is, why would human beings find immortality or "life after death" desirable?

Thanks for thinking with me on this.